a little romance with life

This is based on a dream I had last night. Hope you like it :) In the middle of the market, at the center of the crowd I stood there crying my little heart out It hurt alright, it hurt too bad, A pain suffered too long, a memory too sad People walked, immune to the pain Nobody turned to even look again Nobody tried to figure why I stood there alone Was it too much, to want some love? I cried as I walked, the tears dripping down my face A sudden outburst to cold bitter days And out on that street, at the center of another crowd A different soul crying, screaming so loud Again the people passed, somehow too deaf and too blind As I stood there wondering, why that soul had cried My eyes saw those tears, those eyes saw mine And somehow we knew, everything would be fine For as people went, content in being alone Some people make you realize, you aren't alone And though the pain grew no less, a realization came That on the...

Writing is scary. Everytime I sit down to write, it freaks me out. THEY freak me out, the things I wanna talk about.  Some too personal. Too close. Some too sad. Others too preachy. or some are just so manically happy. It is hard to decide what lie to choose. It is scary cause my mind is convinced that someone will look through the words and see what's been hiding all along. No one needs to know. My fears, my tears, my truths, my stories; they are just mine and mine alone.

Before I begin, my sincere apologies to the people who have opened this blog in the search of something postive. I am sorry, I am not in the state of lifting your spirits, I just can't. And yes, I know I am the one who spoke about hope and love but right now I'm just too low to think rationally. So here I begin- This post is dedicated to all the people I've lost; some due to misunderstandings, some because of distance and others merely because of the lack of initiative from both our sides. I lost people not by way of death but by what died in our friendships. And now I wonder if these people ever remember me, or hope the way I do that things could be the same again. You guys have been special to me, and no matter how much it hurt I've let you go. Nothing, though, fills this empty place in my heart! This time, the one I'm going through, is like the loneliest phase of my life so far. I have lost friends I have valued more than anything, and am on the verge of losin...