a little romance with life

I have unconsciously written a series of poems on love - unloving and being unloved loving someone without them loving you back falling in love with someone who is not thinking of you the kind of person you should fall in love with falling in love with someone else and here's another one now. Clearly this woman comes from a lot of experience! wanting to fall in love for three years I have barfed at the L word and apologized to lovers whose holding hands I’ve wanted to puke on i’ve read literature that invalidates romance and fallen deeply in love with the gifts of friendship i’ve deconstructed the L word and said to myself how gendered it is, how limiting, how suffocating i’ve spoken quite fluently about the ills of monogamy the internalization of a romance from movies and fairytales and unapologetically refused to give in but now there is a voice behind my chest a bluebird that had been tucked away, who sings again i cannot decide if her voice...