a little romance with life

Tied to so many people so tightly without really knowing the quality of the rope.

It is okay to be alone and it’s okay if you can’t love everybody It is absolutely okay if you feel sad or angry and it is alright if sometimes life seems unfair. It is okay to feel lonely when you sit by yourself and wish there was someone by your side and there is nothing wrong if you can’t do every damn thing you decide. It is okay to be stupid sometimes and make a really bad joke it is okay if you can’t say every little thing with a voice that isn’t broke. It is okay if your shoulders slump on a day you feel too low and don’t worry so much about tiny or big things or if sometimes you don’t like the flow. It is okay because you’re still awesome and you will eventually get up and shine but it is also okay to let go of things and just rest for a little while.

I have felt anger in its cruelest form and sometimes its way more right than wrong.

If I needed to be saved I would have cried for help. If I needed to be loved I wouldn't have let you go. If I needed to feel complete I’d never draw half a picture. If I needed for you to hear my voice I would have sung my song. If I needed for you to fall in love with me Maybe you would have. But I don’t, I don’t, I just don’t want to.

I love 4 o clock in the morning when I can sit in the dark and write on a piece of paper with a pen I can hold but not see and scribble words without thinking too much. I love 4 o clock in the morning when it is so quiet and empty that it's possible to smell the ink of my pen and hear the sound of my handwriting and see the outline of the paper through my fingers. I love 4 o clock in the morning when a thought that had been sitting in a corner all day can finally come to light in the dark. I love 4 o clock in the morning it’s the most beautiful hour when you talk only to people who matter and when you think of things that are most important to you. I love 4 o clock in the morning because though technically you’ll say that it’s morning and a new day is beginning For me, it's just the calm peaceful end to a day full of chaos. I just love 4 o clock in the morning. P.s- as a rule, anybody who writes should...

I wonder how it must feel to be so colorful and bright And yet still be so empty inside. You laugh as you pass jumping through the air from one hand to the other and yet not belonging anywhere. And even at night as you stand by the corner I can still sit and look at you as you dance to the music of the fan and it makes me smile wondering whether I ever dance to the music of my life. And balloon, you make me realize how important it is to have a good time because as long as you’re colorful and bright nobody cares if you’re empty inside. :)

Wrote this last night- Its 3 am And I’m thinking That there could be so many people out there who have someone to share their lives with someone to talk to and I can’t help but wonder why no one wants to talk to me.                                   And more thoughts come As sleep refuses to provide any peace And before anything breaks deep inside I just leave it at that. Its 3:12 now I still can’t sleep. Now I’m thinking about What life would be like To float around in different cities Drawing faces that touch my heart And writing poetry That will hopefully touch their heart And the thought brings a smile to my face Because I know Someday I’ll do Everything I've always wanted to.